At 2:49pm yesterday, the moon was New. The last time I was this close to the actual date was in May, but this theme hit me like a ton of metaphorical bricks over the weekend and needed to come out now.

In this last cycle, I focused on Mattering. I wanted to feel some inherent sense of relevance – not so much to other people but to myself. I wanted to find a space where I didn’t always feel like I needed to overextend.

This over-extension comes from a need to be all things to all people as flawlessly as possible. This brings with it a seemingly never-ending torrent of contingencies – over-anticipating every possible perceived need. Every need, of course, except my own.… More...

The Moon became new on Monday, September 2nd, at 9:56pm. Despite being the end of a relaxing Labor Day, I wasn’t yet in a place to commit to a focus for this month. Now, as we approach a full moon tomorrow night, I think I finally have my theme.

In a way, the uncertainty around this cycle’s focus makes sense. Last month I talked about Freedom, and how I wanted to leave behind the identities that I’d crafted or adopted and write my own story. When you basically give your spirit a blank sheet of paper, what do you choose to write?

I ran through several potential themes, each based on different facets of my life. Some fulfilling and inspiring, and some where resignation had replaced motivation.… More...

The moon was last new on August 4th at 7:13am. The last cycle’s theme of Experience saw me trying to differentiate between the kinds of Experiences I was living through – trying to make sense of what does and does not work for me is a lifelong effort. Thankfully, I believe I’m starting to realize that reading from an outdated script serves no one – and that the best Experiences are those that are true to the nature of our individual essence.

Over the past several years, as I put more and more distance between myself and past traumas, I have come to see the friction caused by my living life on my own terms versus my feeling some sense of obligation to ‘the other’ – some amorphous entity for whom I’ve been performing through this life.… More...

At 6:57pm on July 5th, the Moon was New again. We’re currently in the waxing crescent phase, which signifies growth, intention, and hope.

The focus for the last cycle was Resistance, during which I talked about how I “was creating my own Resistance in the path of my attaining peace and happiness” and how I wanted to “bring awareness to where and how I stand in my own way and be mindful that even when I am unable to see clear steps forward, it doesn’t mean that’s actually the case.”

Throughout that cycle, I tried to take note of where I was seeing Resistance or friction in my path. I eliminated some barriers I had inadvertently erected for myself, but when you spend a lifetime creating defenses, it takes a while to realize that some of the things you thought were in place to help you are the very things that are doing you harm.… More...

At 8:38am on June 6th the moon was new again, and at 9:08pm on June 21st, she will be full – so this comes halfway into the cycle. Part of the delay has been a real conundrum around what this cycle’s theme really is. There was the focus that I really thought was in place – I even had the song picked out – but the more I live through these days, the more I think that might be best saved for another time.

The last cycle saw me Breaking a spiritual Fast I had inadvertently imposed on myself. I had become so mired in the mundane that I forgot how to let my spirit be magical. It was in moving through this space that I was reminded of an essay by Alan Watts called “Lightness of Touch” from his book “Become What You Are.”… More...